The Night I died and was Reborn

My first vigil. Outside, in the wilderness. Alone and awake at the edge of a forest, by the lakeside through the night. When I chose the date, only subconsciously realising that it was during the retrograde of Venus: the embodiment of the Goddess Inanna's descent to the underworld, the dark, the unknown. Places we associate with fear, places where you can hear but you can’t see. It was a new moon also, so I was fully aware that I had chosen the darkest possible time to undertake this ritual.  

I walked...